“Loss is forever but so is Love” poet Ken Fields

I’m well (just had a brief fling with the flu).  Montaigne reminds us that we die because we’re alive, not because we’re sick.

Poet Ken Fields Photo by Nicole Blaisdell Ivey

Lovely Ken,

Just finished Blue Plataea Part I on this quiet birdsong morning.

Roshi, good black dog, biggest radar ears on the planet,

tilts his head at the sound of

Pleiades in my cup

So many images to savor

thoughts to see

love to you dear Ken,

Nicole

Searching Pleiades by Nicole Blaisdell Ivey

Thank you for all your kindness and generosity through the years after my father died.

Thank you for your poetry. You bring his spirit back every time I read your poem.

____________________________________________________________

Gus

  Albuquerque, NM

    “Earth angel, earth angel, the one I adore”

        –The Penguins

Ten months after your death I got the news.

All that time you were still alive.  Each week

I thought of you or told a Blaisdell story,

The way I saw you first, at my front door,

Six hours late, the middle of the night, festooned

With leaves in your hair from the back yards you’d crashed through

As curly haired as Bacchus and as stoned:

“Your neighbors don’t know you, man”—you kept shouting,

“Professor Fields, goddamn it.”  The next three days

We talked and drank around the clock, the only

Trace of that conviviality, the phrase

“Far fuckin’ out!”  We said it a thousand times,

Late sixties eloquence, we never looked back.

We burned our lives to the rail, in a few years,

You sobered up and in a few more, me too.

From then on we remembered what we said.

You got to Stanford through a pachuco gang

In San Diego, tattoos on the backs of your fingers.

Arrested for stealing a book, you finished high school

In a bad boys joint run by the nuns.  The bookseller

(Later your trade) thought about what you’d done—

He’d never had a thug steal Wallace Stevens,

So he sent you all the Stevens in his store

And In Defense of Reason, strange remorse.

This Winters is smart, you said.  You came to Stanford

Where Uncle Lumpy, as you called him, loved you.

Your master and mine, he called you his wild boy.

One day the dean of men confronted you.

He’d just found out about your tattoos.  “This school

Is a gentleman’s school, and I expect you to act

Like one, at least, and not come back next term.

We’ve never had anyone like you.”  When you told Winters,

He stood up, pushing his chair into the wall,

And stumped across the quad.  “I never knew

What he said to the dean.”  Hell, you know what he said,

“This boy is ten times smarter than you.  He stays”

You only taught the best:  Mrs. Bridge,

Basho’s Narrow Road, Kurosawa,

Chris Marker and Descartes’ Meditations:

“Wrong in every one of them, but read them

Like a French New Novel, narrated by a man

Trying to keep from going mad, and failing.”

You were my only intellectual.

                                                  Your charm,

Your beautifully vulgar equanimity,

Brought learning to the table and the street,

“Where the rubber meets the chode,” I hear you laugh,

The rude road Strode rode.  In that quick riff

You’d hear John Ford, Woody, and Sonny Rollins,

And the Duke holding court at The Frontier,

The all-night diner where you said good night.

When you described a round bed with a bedspread

Printed with a target—“it was like ground zero

At a fuckathon”—my wife fell in love with you,

“The funniest man alive.”  And you still are.

“Not too many words between myself

And the world outside,” you wrote.

Well, more than you let on.  A single room

Is overflowing with them, “Some white puff

Just beyond our mouth.”  I want to phone you

When a doctor tells me of a patient complaining

Of fireballs in her universe, another

Suffering immaculate degeneration,

And a man controlling his rage by taking something

He called Hold Off.  But no one’s home.

                                                                  Gus,

Fireball, immaculate degenerate, you hold off,

You’re somewhere out there, as they say at Acoma

(Simon Ortiz recalls you at Okie Joe’s),

You’re somewhere out there, Gus, or as you’d say it,

(Corazon, baby) you are far fuckin’ out.

Ken Fields 2005

Blaisdell Ablaze

Gus Blaisdell 1935-2003

We talk about Terrence Malick in Heaven

It’s eight years since you left the world. The Tree

Of Life has come and gone. Birds fly

To creation, others to extinction, yet one

Trembles here

On this branch, now. Light and water

Burst forth in Texas—origin… there is no

Origin here—only music and Dante’s spirit

Guide, portal

Through which we infer eternity,

Our own making, a raft on fire

Refulgent on the thin film it rides upon,

Both gateway and end

Ken Fields – 2012

Before the Word — photo by Nicole Blaisdell Ivey

Kenneth Fields, longtime English professor and acclaimed poet, dies at 84

Known for his insight and wit, Fields was one of Stanford’s longest-serving faculty members. He taught for 53 years.

March 11, 2024

Kenneth Fields, professor of English and of creative writing, emeritus, in the Stanford School of Humanities and Sciences and one of Stanford’s longest-serving faculty members, died Dec. 6 from complications of amyotrophic lateral sclerosis. He was 84.

Fields earned his doctorate in English from Stanford in 1967 and joined the university’s faculty immediately afterward, retiring in 2020. During those decades, he published six poetry collections while teaching courses on creative writing, poetry, and film.

“He was one of the best raconteurs I have known,” said Tobias Wolff, the Ward W. and Priscilla B. Woods Professor, Emeritus, and a former student, colleague, and friend of Fields. “When he finished telling a tale about old friends, family, university colleagues, or soldiers he’d served with, you felt as if you had shared a meal with them, or at least a drink.”

“In every breath could lie a poem”

While earning his undergraduate degree at the University of California, Santa Barbara, a poet introduced him to the work of Yvor Winters, a literary lion who was then teaching at Stanford.

Winters became an important mentor and colleague, and Fields became Winters’ student, collaborator, and even gardener. Fields described the experience in a Stanford Magazine story, writing that he would be working on a ladder when Winters would approach him, asking if he had read this or that poet.

“It was a great, if nerve-wracking, way to learn,” Fields wrote.

Kenneth Fields wearing glasses and wide-brimmed hat
Kenneth Fields. Photo by Laura Alice Watt.

In 1964, Fields received a Wallace Stegner Fellowship for poetry from Stanford. The two-year creative writing fellowship for poets and fiction writers was transformative for Fields, altering the trajectory of his career. After he received his doctorate in English in 1967, he began teaching at Stanford that same year. He later co-led the Stegner program as a professor.

Fields’ teaching varied from the cornerstones of poetry, including French symbolist poets and beat poets, to various forms of storytelling including American Indian mythology, American short fiction, and Western film. He even taught a course on the 20th-century American jazz standards, popular songs, and show tunes commonly called the “Great American Songbook.” His lectures featured a loose, freewheeling style that incorporated his trademark wit and a river of knowledge that ran both deep and wide.

He published six volumes of poetry, praised for their erudition and humor: The Other Walker (Talisman Literary Research, 1971); Sunbelly (David R. Godine, 1973); Smoke (Knife River Press, 1975); The Odysseus Manuscripts (Elpenor Books, 1981); August Delights (Robert L. Barth, 2001); and Classic Rough News (The University of Chicago Press, 2005). At the time of his death, he had been working on Blue Plateau, a collection of nearly 1,000 poems.

In recent years, his work had earned such accolades as Poetry Northwest magazine’s Richard Hugo Prize, awarded for his 2009 poemOne Love.

“In his writing and his teaching, Ken always had a great sense of form and language,” said Seth Lerer, Fields’ longtime colleague at Stanford who is now dean emeritus of arts and humanities at the University of California, San Diego. “He knew that every line of poetry should be a human breath, and that in every breath could lie, potentially, a poem.”

Lifelong poet

Fields was born Aug. 1, 1939, in Colorado City, Texas. At just six weeks old, Fields moved to his new home, San Luis Obispo, California, with his family.

After a childhood spent bicycling the California coastline, Fields attended the University of California, Santa Barbara, where he became the first college graduate in his family. He followed this by serving in the U.S. Army from 1961 to 1963. He married his wife, Nora Cain, in 1979.

Music, relationships, and poetry itself were important to him and were common themes in his writing, as was his experience with Alcoholics Anonymous—he went into recovery in 1982, an experience he referenced in Classic Rough News.

Fields taught the Advanced Poetry Writing Workshop for the Stanford Fellows for many years,and he never stopped writing poetry. In 2020, he composed a tribute after the passing of his poet friend Eavan Boland, the former director of Stanford’s Creative Writing Program. “Loss is forever, but so is love,” Fields wrote.

Fields is survived by his wife; his daughters, Erika Fields Jurney, Samantha Fields, and Jessica Fields; grandsons Henry Jurney, Ed Jurney, and Charlie Jurney; and his brother Don Fields and sister-in-law Ginger Rutland.

By Paul L. Underwood

Rodin, The Fallen Caryatid Bearing Her Stone photo by Nicole Blaisdell Ivey

Stanley Crawford R.I.P.

October 2, 1937 – January 25, 2024

                          Photograph by Don J. Usner

Eternally grateful for all the SEEDS dear Stanley      

love, Nicole

FRAGMENTS

Gus becomes friends with Stanley and Rose Mary Crawford in the 1970’s.       He champions Stanley’s writings for the rest of his life.

Gus sends Stanley Crawford’s memoir Mayordomo to editor and friend Beth Hadas at the University of New Mexico Press, where it is published in 1988 and wins a Western States Book Award. 

Elizabeth Hadas editor UNM Press     Photograph by Nicole Blaisdell Ivey

Gus reissues Crawford’s 1972 novel The Log of the SS The Mrs Unguentine, the first under his Living Batch Press imprint.

From the LIVING BATCH NEWS, “LIVING BATCH ENTERS PUBLISHING…The first two (books) are Stanley Cavells’ THIS NEW YET UNAPPROACHABLE AMERICA and Stanley Crawford’s classic and long-unattainable LOG OF THE S.S. THE MRS. UNGUENTINE… Reasons for the press?  To make some of what we believe in and to produce at reasonable prices and in typographically handsome (readable) formats lost (and original) books of lasting interest..A simpler reason is enthusiasm. When I read Cavells’ lectures on Wittgenstein as a cultural philosopher and Emerson as finding and beginning the founding of American culture, I felt that if I ever wanted to publish, here was an opportunity not to be missed.  For years, I have tried to interest publishers in printing Crawford’s novel…With Cavell as foundation and Crawford as the first couple of bricks I had more than I needed to move on.  I trust such conviction will continue and the little wall of books will stretch like a new course of masonry, brick by brick, book by book, until we have a foot or so of or own choosing on ours and others’ shelves.

Gus and Stan at El Bosque Garlic Farm

Wonderful tribute/story/obit published by the Santa Fe New Mexican-

Dixon Garlic Farmer, Revered Author Stanley Crawford Dies at 86

“He was totally brave, totally ready, and was very, very graceful about it”

Stanley Crawford at his home in Dixon. Photo by Don Usner. With permission from Katya Crawford.

By Julia Goldberg January 31, 2024 at 5:38 am MST

“A farmer-writer who loves garlic as much as words” is how the New York Times described Dixon writer and farmer Stanley Crawford in a 2011 story, and one might be hard-pressed to improve upon that characterization.

Crawford, whose 11 books included the seminal and award-winning memoirs Mayordormo: Chronicle of an Acequia in Northern New MexicoandA Garlic Testament: Seasons on a Small New Mexico Farm,died Jan. 25 at his home in Dixon as a result of a medically-assisted death he chose after learning earlier in January he had untreatable cancer, his daughter Katya Crawford tells SFR.

“He was totally brave, totally ready, and was very, very graceful about it,” says Crawford, who was with her father when he died, along with her brother Adam and his wife.

After learning he had advanced liver, kidney and colon cancer at the start of January and making the decision to decline treatment, Crawford spent the last few weeks of life talking to friends and family.

“He was able to speak to so many people that he loved and let them know that he was dying,” Katya Crawford says. “For three weeks before he died, he was able to see people every day or talk to people on the phone all around the world.” And while he had trouble walking toward the end and was very weak, “he was never in any pain,” she says.

In fact, up until last year, Crawford was still farming El Bosque Farm in Dixon, where he and his late wife, Rose Mary, who died three years ago, moved in 1969 and raised their children. Katya Crawford was born in Embudo, while Adam was born in Ireland, where Stanley and Rose Mary were living at the time.

Up until last year, her father remained on the electric co-op board, Crawford says. “He was traveling to conferences and to Washington DC. He was doing the Farmers Market. He taught at Colorado College in October; he could barely walk and his students loved him. That was in October. He was just living life very, very fully. He was surrounded by lots of young people and lifetime friends.”

Though his death naturally was hard to prepare for, she says, “my dad lived a really awesome life.”

Stanley and Rose Mary Crawford with their pet Magpie. Photo courtesy of Katya Crawford

Crawford himself was born in 1937 and educated at the University of Chicago and at the Sorbonne. He wrote his first novel, Gascoyne, while living on Greece, and it was optioned for film.

That was “probably the only time he had money,” Katya says of her father. He had “a pretty intense obsession with automobiles” and bought a Mercedes. He, RoseMary and Adam were living on Ireland and took the Mercedes on a ship back to New York, where they drove it across the country. He left behind a Bentley, a Ford Model T and a vintage tractor, she says. After returning to San Francisco, the Crawfords went to visit friends in Northern New Mexico and ended up buying land and staying there.

Stanley Crawford also left behind two aging Blue Healers, a Corgi puppy named Pippa and approximately 35 geese, ducks and chickens, she says. Decisions about the farm’s future have not been made.

“We’re not going to make any rash decisions,” she says. “We both grew up in that house. It’s incredibly sentimental to us. I worked there even when I was in college, I would go back in the summer time to work on the farm. I went to the farm almost every weekend to take care of my mom, lots of times in the summertime to take care of my mom and then my dad. So we’re very attached to that to the property and to their legacy. It’s also kind of a painful place to be without them.”

In 2019, Crawford published The Garlic Papers: A Small Garlic Farm in the Age of Global Vampires (Leaf Storm Press), which documents the massive legal battle that pitted his small farm in New Mexico against a Chinese garlic importer and its several international law firms, also the subject of a Netflix documentary, “Garlic Breath,” in the six-part series Rotten, released in 2018.

“The news about Stan’s passing came as a shock,” Leaf Storm Publisher Andy Dudzik (a former longtime SFR publisher) tells SFR via email. “As a writer, he was a singular talent and an absolute joy to work with. It was an honor to be entrusted with publishing two of his books. He was also one of the most gentle and humble souls I’ve ever known, and I will miss him greatly.”

Stanley Crawford made this desk, at which he wrote his first novel, “Gascoyne,” in Lesvos, Greece. Photo courtesy of Katya Crawford

Leaf Storm also published Crawford’s 2017 novel Village, described by the late author John Nichols as “vintage Crawford…true to life…love, death, sex, depression, poverty, ditch cleaning, love of automobiles, teenage craziness, bits of euphoria…all mingle with the natural world through which the human community stumbles.”

In a 2017 interview with Lorene Mills on Report from Santa Fe, Crawford said he wrote the novel as “a love letter to my village.”

Katya Crawford says he favorite of her father’s books is the 1972 novella Log of the S.S. The Mrs. Unguentine. Chair and Associate Professor in the Landscape Architecture Department at the University of New Mexico’s School of Architecture, Crawford says when she was doing her master’s degree in landscape architecture, she had an assignment to design an island and designed the garbage barge from the novella, which describes, in the form of a ship’s log, the 40-year history of the Unguentine marriage at sea on board a garbage barge. Upon its reissue several years ago, the Los Angeles Times wrote “the book is long overdue for a heroic homecoming.”

Stanley Crawford also left behind one unpublished novel, Katya says, which his agent will work on selling to publish posthumously. His remaining archives will go to UNM.

Before her father died, she asked him if he wanted to write his own obituary. He said no; he was too tired. So she asked if there was any particular message he would want that obituary to include.

“Friendship are everything,” he said.

She told him that was her mother’s line and not “very original.” And he laughed and understood but then repeated the sentiment: “I’m serious,” he said. “Friends are so important.”

And he had so many, Katya says. “He had a really good life.”

Katya Crawford shot this photo of her dad, Stanley Crawford, on Jan. 12. He kept his sense of humor to the end, she says.

“You pay homage when and where you can. I love the smell of the bulb as the earth opens and releases it in harvest, an aroma that only those who grow garlic and handle the bulb and the leaves still fresh from the earth can know. Anyone who gardens knows these indescribable presences—of not only fresh garlic, but onions, carrots and their tops, parsley’s piercing signal, the fragrant exultations of a tomato plant in its prime, sweet explosions of basil. They can be known best and most purely on the spot, in the instant, in the garden, in the sun, in the rain. They cannot be carried away from their place in the earth. They are inimitable. And they have no shelf life at all.”

― Stanley Crawford, A Garlic Testament: Seasons on a Small New Mexico Farm

My son Jack Augustus (Gus’ grandson) and I are lucky enough to spend a fine hot day picking garlic with Stan, who at 81 years old, silently gives us a lesson in endurance and, of course, enough fabulous fragrant garlic to share with family.

Stanley Crawford reads from SEED at BOOKWORKS- 2015     
Albuquerque, New Mexico     Photo by Nicole Blaisdell Ivey

Hello Stan,

For a week now five Screech owls have perched in our overgrown backyard mulberry tree. 

Gold orb eyes stare back at me. Feels like a visitation from ancient gods.

City girl photographer tries desperately not to abuse their daytime rest 

with camera clicks and lonely sighs. 

Last night finished reading SEED for third time. 

Such good company.

How are you? Garlic? etc…

love and gratitude,

Nicole

In February my husband and I drive to Dixon to take Stan to lunch and visit with him at his home. We’d sadly missed Rose Mary’s memorial celebration having been exposed to Covid and not wanting to infect others.

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We pull into Zuly’s little dirt parking lot. Stan unfolds his lanky self from a sleek silver car, a stark contrast to his dusty black jeans and faded plaid flannel. I hug him, my head nestling in at his heart. He laughs. He reaches to shake Mark’s hand. “Good to see you.” In two steps I say “Oh” , and turn to hug him again. He takes it. “That one’s from Janet.”
Stan smiles, “It’s been a while since I’ve seen her,” he looks towards the scrubby hills, “two years since Rosemary’s death. At the celebration I believe, in the summer.” He pulls open the restaurant screen door. “First day they’re open this season.”

The dark-haired woman greets Stan warmly in Spanish and English. They catch up, swinging words back and forth between them, between languages.

We order Carne con Chile and sandwiches.

We sit at the formica wood tables, in the black padded metal chairs and tell stories. Mark talks climate. Stan says, my friend David read the new book by William de Buys. It’s a small one. He’s gone to Nepal to walk around and behold the natural world. He says the planet is in hospice.” 

We walk out of the deli and into the sunshine, light bounces of the car hood.

“Come back to the house,” Stan says.

I put on my sunglasses and hand Mark my keys. “I’m riding with him.”

Stan folds himself back into the driver’s seat. I wait as he clears the papers, books, tools, choice sticks, rocks and feathers off the passenger seat.  I climb in, see the screen, look around the interior. “What kind of car is this?”

“It’s a Tesla,” he says tapping the screen and backing up.

“Oh, I’ve never been in one.”

“Let me show you what it does.”

Stan transports us from zero to so fast on that little country straight away that I inhale a squeal, my stomach butterflys , and I yell, as if increased speed requires an equal increase in volume.

“Don’t’ stop. Keep going. I don’t have to be back for two weeks.”

He laughs as he slows before the curve out of town.

Back at El Bosque Farm in the adobe house that he and Rosemary built by hand, we sit and talk in his paper strewn living room where dogs wag and hop up on couches for love.

“I should have invited people over even though it was hard”, he said. ” It would have been better. Everyone just stopped coming by.”

We sit in silence. Think about the slow loss of his vivacious wife’s memory ten years before she died.

Mark and I stand to go, to head back for my shift with my mother who thinks I’m her high school girl friend.

Stan says, “Let me get you some garlic.”

PORTRAITS of Gus Blaisdell

Stanford University 1957

Aspen, Colorado

by Arnold Gassan 1962

Editor at University of New Mexico Press 1966

Pomona 1973- Standing: Hap Tivey, James Turrell, Gus Blaisdell, Lewis Baltz

Sitting – Maury Baden, Guy Williams

Gus Blaisdell and Ira Jaffe 1985
Gus Blaisdell and Poet Geoffrey Young       Portrait by William Stafford 1971

             Gus Blaisdell and Ray Waddington 1976

Gus Blaisdell                     Portrait by Max Kozloff
Gus Blaisdell and Poet Robert Creeley 2000   Portrait by Nicole Blaisdell Ivey

Gus Blaisdell and writer Evan S. Connell at Trinity Site  Video Still from His Heaviness        by Nicole Blaisdell Ivey

Gus Blaisdell at Living Batch Bookstore 1999      Video Still from His Heaviness by Nicole Blaisdell Ivey

Gus Blaisdell and Nicholas Brownrigg photos by Nicole Blaisdell Ivey
Stanford Friends meet again.40 years later
Gus Blaisdell by Matt Cohen
Gus Blaisdell by Douglas Kent Hall ALBUQUERQUE 2000

Gus Blaisdell and painter Guy Williams 1972

Gus Blaisdell visiting Jack Stauffacher’s Greenwood Press San Francisco

Stanley Cavell and Gus Blaisdell               Harvard 1970’s

Gus and Cat    Aspen                Portrait by Arnold Gassan

Gus Blaisdell              Polaroid portrait by Johnathan Williams

Gus Blaisdell                    Portrait by Adrian Salinger

September 21, 1935  -  September 17th 2003      HE WAS A DEEP CAT

Ernest J. Gaines STAMPS!

Completely brightened my cloudy day to find Ernie Gaines on the new Black Heritage series stamps. Absolutely right.

The guy in the picture with me is Edward “Ned” Spring. He was a very good friend of both Gus Blaisdell and me. We were at Stanford together back in the late 50s. We used to listen to a lot of Jazz together, drink wine and discuss literature. Ned use to write liner notes for 33 rpm dust jackets. He could be extremely funny…He died young. I think Gus was at his bed side when he died, Gus called to tell me he had gone to the big PAD in the sky. He left a wife and two children. Gus and I were at the memorial. It was very quiet. Betty, Ned’s wife, wanted it that way. Just a few close friends. I think that was the only time I was ever seen to cry. Ned was quite thin, and Gus always called him The Snake. He called me Prez, because I wore a hat like the one Lester Young, the great jazz musician, wore. Gus was good at giving people different names. “Hey, Prez, the snake has left us ” We had been out drinking at the No Name Bar in Sausalito only a couple of weeks before he died–Me, Gus and Ned…..Ernie> (Jan 24, 2011)

DAVE HICKEY blurbs Gus Blaisdell Collected

“We hear people talking all the time about Renaissance men. Gus Blaisdell was a Restoration rake, a creature of coffeehouses, bookstores, flaring arguments and happy reconciliations, crazy women and crazier experimentation. This book is a wonderful survey of his enthusiasms and complaints—and a fond memorial of his gift to New Mexico, and Albuquerque particularly. Gus was the absolute, undeniable, real thing. One of the few.”

Gus Blaisdell— Living Batch Bookstore Photograph by Nicole Blaisdell Ivey